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This is Freedom Essay 67
Emma Cullen-Ward’s Transformation
In Freedom Essay 51 Tony Gowing described the all-effective, all-satisfying and completely wonderful Transformed Way of Living that solving the human condition makes possible for all humans. Today we are presenting a further personal affirmation from a WTM Member of the wonder of the transformed life.
This F. Essay features Emma Cullen-Ward’s account of her transformation:
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Before including the transcript of Emma’s presentation, this box contains a summary by Jeremy Griffith of the transforming situation humans are in.
Now that the great goal of the whole human journey of conscious thought and enquiry has been achieved and we have found understanding of our conflicted and distressed human condition (see F. Essay 5), all the old retaliatory, defensive and insecure upset behaviours of anger, egocentricity and alienation that we had to employ to cope while we couldn’t defend ourselves with understanding are no longer needed. They are obsoleted, brought to an end. In fact, with this knowledge of the human condition now found, it would be an act of total irresponsibility, indeed madness, to continue down that old, insecure, defensive and destructive competitive, selfish and aggressive road. The truth is, there is nothing in the way now of every human taking up a magnificent, unburdened, human-condition-free, cooperative, selfless and loving transformed life!
Most significantly, this new Transformed Lifeforce State (TLS) and its way of living is fundamentally different to all the previous ways in which we abandoned our upset life and lived instead in accordance with more cooperative and selfless principles. As is described in F. Essay 29, there has been a progression of increasingly dishonest, deluded and dangerous ways of adopting a more cooperative and selfless way of living — from religion to socialism/communism to New Ageism to feminism to environmentalism to politically correct post-modernism. As was explained in that essay, what was increasingly dishonest, deluded and dangerous about all these movements was that they weren’t just promoted as ways of restraining upset, but as actual solutions to the psychologically upset state of our human condition. As the Adam Stork story in F. Essay 5 is finally able to make clear, we humans had to be prepared to suffer becoming upset angry, egocentric and alienated while we searched for knowledge, ultimately for self-knowledge, the redeeming, reconciling and rehabilitating understanding of our ‘good and evil’ conflicted human condition. Therefore, dogmatic insistence on cooperative and selfless behaviour oppressed the freedom we needed to continue the upsetting search for knowledge. And to claim that dogmatic compliance with cooperative and selfless behaviour was the solution to upset behaviour was pseudo idealistic because real idealism depended on continuing the upsetting search for knowledge until we found the rehabilitating understanding of the human condition. Understanding not dogma was the answer; it was our species’ goal and destiny. However, once that relieving understanding of the human condition was found, as it now has been, this situation fundamentally changes. Suddenly it’s no longer pseudo idealistic to insist on cooperative and selfless behaviour, because the upsetting battle to find understanding of ourselves has been won. So while all previous forms of abandoning our upset life were fundamentally irresponsible and pseudo idealistic, abandoning our upset life is now not only legitimate, it is the only way to live. (F. Essay 39 presents a significant discussion by Jeremy on the immense danger of left-wing dogma, and how the legitimate transformation that understanding of the human condition makes possible is the only way to save Western civilisation, indeed save humanity. The differences between the Transformed Way of Living and all other previous ways of abandoning our upset life are also fully described in chapters 9:5 and 9:6 of FREEDOM.)
YES, THE IMMENSE EXCITEMENT AND RELIEF OF BEING EFFECTIVELY FREE OF THE HUMAN CONDITION — the joy and happiness of being liberated from the burden of our insecurities, self-preoccupations and devious strategising; the awesome meaning and power of finally being genuinely aligned with the truth and actually participating in the magic true world; the wonderful empathy and equality of goodness and fellowship that understanding of the human condition now allows us to feel for our fellow humans; the freedom now to effectively focus on repairing the world; and, above all, the radiant aliveness from the optimism that comes with knowing our species’ march through hell has finally ended and that a human-condition-free new world is coming — CAN NOW TRANSFORM EVERY HUMAN AND THUS THE WORLD.
From being a human-condition oppressed and depressed alienated person, you and all other humans can now be TRANSFORMED into redeemed, liberated-from-the-human-condition, exhilarated, ecstatic, enthralled-with-existence, empowered, world-transforming LIFEFORCES. This exhilarated, ecstatic, enthralled-with-existence aspect is the ‘Life’ in ‘Lifeforce’, while the empowered, world-transforming aspect is the ‘force’ in ‘Lifeforce’, so LIFEFORCE covers both the personal benefit and the benefit to the world in one word. Such is the Transformed Lifeforce State or TLS!
F. Essay 17 explains how everyone’s lives can now be immediately transformed, while ‘The 4 key Transformation presentations’ on our website’s Transformation page provide a step-by-step description of the transformation process.
The transcript of Emma Cullen-Ward’s transformation
Hi, my name is Emma Cullen-Ward. I’ve been a member of the WTM since the early 90s. To cut a very long story short, I have long wished for the day when the world says TO ME that it’s OK, that the human condition is solved, that the Transformed State is how we rehabilitate and pave way to a future free of psychosis. But that’s not right, it’s not fair. IT’S UP TO ME (us) to tell the world it’s OK, that it was right to hope and dream of one day the world being free because it can be, and it has started. [Read the liberating explanation of the human condition in F. Essay 5.]
Seeing Franklin (Mukakanga), Stefan (Rössler), Sam (Akritidis), Frank (Balamatsias) [referring to their initiatives to set up WTM Centres in their cities — see F. Essay 22] and Jimmy (McPhedran) [see Jimmy’s affirmation in F. Essay 60] all respond so sensibly to this project, and behave so properly when we’ve endured such cynicism and fear-mongering was such a shot in the arm for me, it kind of woke me up from a bad dream where I could actually see how love and understanding is going to overcome the paralysis of denial. Seeing this and other factors helped me let go of all the excuses, grievances and insecurities that have held me back.
So that sets the scene for why I am doing this video. I’m out of my bubble [referring to Jeremy’s drawing of the stages of freeing yourself from a psychosis, from A Species In Denial — see below] and willing to do all I can to get more understanding out there to stop the pain sooner! I want to briefly chat about five things that helped me let go of my anguish and fully absorb the goodness and love from what Jeremy has long worked out. The first being key.
1. Seeing that I have been so massively codependent to a system built entirely to counter misunderstanding.
I just want to repeat that: Seeing that I have been so massively codependent to a system built entirely to counter misunderstanding (that we are fundamentally bad). I have been jostling for my place in a soul-dead world when right in front of us is the handbook for our biologically explained rehabilitation. At that point, it’s like Stacy Rodger says in her Affirmation [see F. Essay 59], once you see that truth, you can’t un-see it.
No matter what country, region or hillside you live in you can be assured that your whole structure is built to cope with the human condition because that’s just the way it is, always has been, always will be as they say. We build churches to remind us of our fundamental goodness, statues to glorify our courage to defy ignorance, and we create the most incredible music and art in recognition of the spirit that lives in each of us to be free of our corrupted existence.
It’s no exaggeration or depressive delusion to say that life as we know it is like coexisting in a mental asylum, about trying to get the most comfortable straitjacket and great looking shackles that all but paralyse us. That’s a pretty stark picture but when you really engage your brain and look at the world, the human condition at large and in you, and you compete with the next human-condition stricken mental case, the ridiculousness almost becomes funny. To see how I have jostled for my place in the mental asylum when the cure is right there for the taking made me see my mad loop for what it is. So stupid, yet so glorious. But its only possible when you wholly and fully wrap your arms around what Jeremy has explained — that each and every person on this planet, to varying degrees sure, has been smashed by the human condition — and from that point on your call to action every morning is to prove you are worthwhile, not a flawed mess. That you’re a fundamentally good human that deserves love and kindness. To be treated ‘properly’ and with ‘respect’. And it becomes your life-long loop.
For me that call to action was that I was not a hopeless insecure wreck — that I had a purpose and place the world, but every day was ‘Groundhog Day’ [a reference to the film of the same name in which the main character finds himself in a time loop, repeating the same day again and again] because misreadings are stronger than the crummy wins despite the short term relief they bring. You don’t wake up one day reconciled with your misreadings, because misreadings run the show!
2. Grievances are a by-product of madness.
This is effectively what [WTM Member] Johnny Biggs said recently: you don’t do deals with your resigned self/strategy because it’s mad, it can’t be rational. [See John Biggs’s Transformation affirmation in F. Essay 64.]
It helped me to apply this logic to grievances — the defensive reactions to events that trigger our insecurities. There are few things more toxic on this planet than grievances. They lurk in the dark recesses of our minds, always reminding you why you shouldn’t forgive someone or something, why you’re right and have been wronged. And one day you’ll be proven right. Grievances are the ultimate delusions, as painful as they can be, because by their very nature they are a by-product of our defensive condition — you can argue degrees of wrongness but it’s a futile exercise. No one has been able to really treat the next person properly except prophets throughout history that have variously tried to teach love and compassion [see F. Essay 45 for an explanation of unevasive thinkers or ‘prophets’]. Grievances are illogical and impossible to resolve, you need to let them go. To indulge them is the ultimate recipe for madness. For me, it’s like my grievances have been obsoleted. The space they once occupied has been filled with a resolve to support this information and get it out to the world so that the madness of grievances and the pain they cause can stop.
3. Readiness for change.
It is true that any change starts by being open to it. I won’t bore you with my 20 year-plus history, but in the last few months, enough cracks began to show for me to know something in me needed to change. Age and experience has helped me see through the delusion and the obscenity of me supporting this information without applying it to myself [see F. Essay 18 for an explanation of this ‘Mexican Standoff’]. For years I have felt like a muted hypocrite. Plus, recognising that the world is getting madder escalated my sense of hypocrisy. Remember how relieving it was to watch Bill Murray in ‘Groundhog Day’ finally stop his hopeless loop, allowing the real story to begin? A trite example, but it’s that feeling and experience for humanity that I live for, and I can’t even try to describe how glorious that will be.
4. The Moon/Integrative Meaning.
Ok, this sounds a bit weird, but for me it helps. You know that feeling when you see something so magnificent, like a rising full moon, or a star-filled sky in a desert, or a huge rainbow, or even stand in a stadium that is bursting with excitement and anticipation? Something that stops you in your tracks. At that moment, you actually get perspective and tap into a grander energy and know that our universe is so much more powerful than our chaotic, feeble and lonely states.
5. Just help, it’s a ‘do’.
God, it’s exhausting defending shitty behaviour and being defensive all the time. My decision-making is now based on what will help, rather than on looking for wins that will appease my insecurities. And as [WTM Member] Jimmy McPhedran said recently, the smallest decisions to do what is right bring such disproportionate relief and energy. [As mentioned, you can see James McPhedran’s Transformation affirmation in F. Essay 60.]
So the here and now…….
We live in daunting times, there’s no doubt about that, but this juncture for humanity is real, and here, and we so critically need to resolve our destructive upset state before even more untold misery. We know the answers to mend our world are not going to come from Parliament, courtrooms, churches, yoga rooms, universities, the tops of mountains, from out of space. They are going to come from recognising that it’s safe and right to put down our bags of shit (full of defenses and grievances) in the knowledge that we are good, and in fact, remarkably heroic in living so courageously in the absence of true, dignifying, biologically-based understanding. [Again, see F. Essay 5 for the understanding of the human condition upon which the Transformation in all these affirmations is based.]
God, how much the world needs and deserves this makes me start to shake, but I know that if I do what I can and live embracing what I know in the hope that I can impart some comfort for others just like Annie Williams, Tony Gowing, Stefan Rössler, Franklin Mukakanga [see all these wonderful Transformation affirmations ] and many others have done for me, not least Jeremy, then I can’t go wrong. And I tell you what, you just have to consider the Transformed Lifeforce State as an option and you’re three quarters of the way there because that means you’ve seen through your deluded self. Listen to the song Imagine by John Lennon and ask yourself, have you got it all worked out?
And on that note I want to suggest a song. I thought of Billy Joel who has always connected me to reality in a way that assured me that I was not the only one feeling confused or disappointed. Billy, I love you enormously, Code of Silence was my Resignation war cry [see F. Essay 41 on Resignation], but even you know you’ve done your job in bringing comfort to broken hearts and lost souls. So when I heard Jeremy make a reference the other day to Tom Jones, I did a little exploring, and the one song I just can’t get enough of at the moment is called Help Yourself. Please have a listen and play it really loud!!
Help Yourself, Tom Jones (lyrics by Jack Fishman)
‘♫ Love is like candy on a shelf / You want to taste and help yourself / The sweetest things are there for you / Help yourself, take a few / That’s what I want you to do
We’re always told repeatedly / The very best in life is free / So if you want to prove it’s true/ Baby, I’m telling you / This is what you should do
Just help yourself to my lips, to my arms / Just say the word and they’re yours / Just help yourself to the love in my heart / Your smile has opened up the door / The greatest wealth that exists in the world / Could never buy what I can give / So help yourself to my lips, to my arms / And then lets really start to live
Allllllllll right. Yeah
My heart has love enough for two / More than enough for me and you / I’m rich with love, a millionaire / I’ve so much, it’s unfair / Why don’t you take a share
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Watch Jeremy Griffith present the breakthrough redeeming explanation of the human condition in F. Essay 5, or read . You can also read much more on the transformation made possible by the explanation of the human condition in , or .
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These essays were composed during 2017 by Jeremy Griffith, Damon Isherwood,
Fiona Cullen-Ward & Brony FitzGerald at the Sydney WTM Centre.